Friday, April 13, 2007
J rock festival
Hi everyone!
I also wanted to thank you for the comments on the last blog regarding............. X Japan.....
I still haven't figured out what to do with this matter….. but when I decide, please know that each one of you helped me with this decision, which I really appreciate!!!
OK…… let me change the subject…….
More than a year ago, some of my friends asked me if I could organize a Japanese Rock event in America……… then I said……. OK! ..... Well that's it…… We're doing it.
When I used to live in Tokyo, I organized several rock concerts….. So this time I'm doing it in Los Angeles with several partners. ….. Some small details may change, but we have 9 bands coming from Japan and will be performing at the "Wiltern Theater" in L.A. on May 25, 26th.
(The band lineup will be:alice nine., Vidoll, Duel Jewel, Kagrra, Miyavi, DéspairsRay, Merry, Girugamesh, and MUCC.
Also, at the theater, the fourth member of the band will be announced.
I'm not performing….. but I'll be there to make sure everything rocks.
Another thing….. Last week I was asked to do another soundtrack of a new Hollywood movie…… I just finished reading the script…… this one is really, really weird, but very interesting……. Maybe I should do it…… well my managers and attorneys started negotiating with the movie studio…… hopefully everything works out!
I love what I do….. but sometimes the pressure of the schedule is intense, and stressful, because I really care about the quality of the music, no matter what project I'm involved with.
I feel like I just opened the door a little bit, that has been closed for several years after the sad incident….. Well things start flooding into it….. I guess I'm lucky…… but I'm a little tired…..
Maybe I've been working in the studio too long…… maybe I should get out and perform!!!
……..OOPS!!! I just spilled the melted chocolate ice cream on the keyboard…… AHHHHH… (to be specific: which is chocolate ice cream made of rice which my nutritionist recommended.)…..…AHHHHHHH!!!!!
…… I'm so clumsy….. Well I should go and clean my desk…. Hope to meet you soon!!!!!
Love,
YOSHIKI
PS: regarding the Jrock festival. If you'd like to know more information, please go to J rock revolution
2007年4月13日 星期五
2007年4月7日 星期六
[轉貼]Hacked (from yoshiki's myspace)
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Hacked
Current mood: confused
Wow, my Violet UK account got hacked….. since it's been brought to my attention, I've fixed the problem.
I just wanted to tell everyone who let me know about this;
Thank you very much for your support, and for the instructions on how to fix this problem.
Thank you, thank you!!!!!!
I love you,
YOSHIKI
Hacked
Current mood: confused
Wow, my Violet UK account got hacked….. since it's been brought to my attention, I've fixed the problem.
I just wanted to tell everyone who let me know about this;
Thank you very much for your support, and for the instructions on how to fix this problem.
Thank you, thank you!!!!!!
I love you,
YOSHIKI
2007年2月25日 星期日
[轉貼] X JAPAN (from yoshiki's myspace)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
X JAPAN
God!!!
I finally got the day off yesterday.
After the new year, I've been working and working……. I got sick, but kept recording and recording……. So I finally finished one of the projects I have been working on……. Not VUK, not yet…….
Anyway, it was a perfect day off…… I went to my studio, and interviewed several candidates for my entertainment organization, and went to dinner with several friends…… then went to see the "Dir en grey" show at the Wiltern Theater in LA.
Overall the show was great…… full of energy, and….. every time I see them perform, it makes me want to rock…… I'm doing a lot of different genres of music……. from classical to…… whatever…… but I think I really love rock. I've been playing the drums since I was 10 years old…… well, actually playing the piano since age 4 as well.
Anyway…… after the show, the entire band came to my house, and celebrated Shinya's (the drummer's) birthday party. Back then….. well, when I was producing Dir en grey, we used to hang out pretty much every day…… It was so nice to hang out with them again.
Last night we ended up drinking together until the morning,
I hope they're all OK for the show tonight.
On stage they were very charismatic, but off stage they are some of the sweetest people I know…… HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM!!!
Well, I haven't been producing bands or artists for a while…… because at one point I was producing almost 10 artists at the same time, and it completely burned me out…… But I may be starting again…… well before I do, I have to finish so many other things……
OK….. I'm still working on Violet UK……I think….. but for the first time in many years, I'm confident that some of these songs will be able to blow your minds away……
When I used to do X Japan's songs…… every time I finished recording….. I hated them….. I always felt that something was missing…… but finally with VUK…… You'll see!!!!!!!
And…… some people have questions about "THE BAND".
Yes, Sugizo from Luna Sea came here to LA several times last year, and last month Gackt came to town, and we both went to dinner….. pretty much just the two of us……
Actually that was really funny….. Gackt came to my house and ate dinner…… that was good….. Then I said to him "why don't we go out to dinner?". and he said "we just ate…..???" then I said "I wanna eat different food….." well .... we ate Japanese food at my house, and then ended up going out to a Japanese restaurant in LA…..
(We are very weird…. Ha, ha, ha, ha)…… but that was fun!
Yes, I'm so lucky to have them as friends, and also to be able to work with them professionally.
Sugizo and Gackt are such talented people, also having such an amazing vibe. Actually, they are all going to come here next month with one more person that I can't reveal yet.
OK, and X Japan…..
I'm like…….Why now? ..... Why, why, why……
To be honest….. it took years to conquer the pain and sadness….. maybe not yet, I still cannot listen to…… or watch X Japan's videos….. without tears…..
" MY OWN GODDAMN BAND" ….. I can't listen to it without crying…… HOW CAN I BE IN IT AGAIN? …… IT HURTS SO MUCH…… TO EVEN TALK ABOUT ...... X JAPAN…..
Yes, I can play the drums. I think I can play them even harder than before…… of course my injured neck and wrists hurt….. but SO WHAT!!! ….. I don't give a fuck about that kind of pain…..
But mentally….. I don't know if I can take it….. I'm not saying if I'll do it or not….. I talked to Toshi (vocalist)……. He called me almost towards the end of last year….. for the first time since we went our separate ways……….
Toshi and I..... we grew up together…........ I don't know ….. I don't know…. I don't …… know …….
Yes, there are lyrics of the song "WITHOUT YOU" ….. That, I wrote, right after Hide's death….. also, I had to do so many takes of piano recording, because of the tears falling down and flooding the piano keys, and my fingers kept slipping again and again.
If there's somebody to sing this song ….. I think it should be Toshi….. but …… I don't know….. I don't know….. I don't fucking know….. It's too painful to……
I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything like that….. but so many people have been asking me about this, so I had to say something…… just let me….. have…… a little more time……
I love you all.
YOSHIKI
X JAPAN
God!!!
I finally got the day off yesterday.
After the new year, I've been working and working……. I got sick, but kept recording and recording……. So I finally finished one of the projects I have been working on……. Not VUK, not yet…….
Anyway, it was a perfect day off…… I went to my studio, and interviewed several candidates for my entertainment organization, and went to dinner with several friends…… then went to see the "Dir en grey" show at the Wiltern Theater in LA.
Overall the show was great…… full of energy, and….. every time I see them perform, it makes me want to rock…… I'm doing a lot of different genres of music……. from classical to…… whatever…… but I think I really love rock. I've been playing the drums since I was 10 years old…… well, actually playing the piano since age 4 as well.
Anyway…… after the show, the entire band came to my house, and celebrated Shinya's (the drummer's) birthday party. Back then….. well, when I was producing Dir en grey, we used to hang out pretty much every day…… It was so nice to hang out with them again.
Last night we ended up drinking together until the morning,
I hope they're all OK for the show tonight.
On stage they were very charismatic, but off stage they are some of the sweetest people I know…… HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM!!!
Well, I haven't been producing bands or artists for a while…… because at one point I was producing almost 10 artists at the same time, and it completely burned me out…… But I may be starting again…… well before I do, I have to finish so many other things……
OK….. I'm still working on Violet UK……I think….. but for the first time in many years, I'm confident that some of these songs will be able to blow your minds away……
When I used to do X Japan's songs…… every time I finished recording….. I hated them….. I always felt that something was missing…… but finally with VUK…… You'll see!!!!!!!
And…… some people have questions about "THE BAND".
Yes, Sugizo from Luna Sea came here to LA several times last year, and last month Gackt came to town, and we both went to dinner….. pretty much just the two of us……
Actually that was really funny….. Gackt came to my house and ate dinner…… that was good….. Then I said to him "why don't we go out to dinner?". and he said "we just ate…..???" then I said "I wanna eat different food….." well .... we ate Japanese food at my house, and then ended up going out to a Japanese restaurant in LA…..
(We are very weird…. Ha, ha, ha, ha)…… but that was fun!
Yes, I'm so lucky to have them as friends, and also to be able to work with them professionally.
Sugizo and Gackt are such talented people, also having such an amazing vibe. Actually, they are all going to come here next month with one more person that I can't reveal yet.
OK, and X Japan…..
I'm like…….Why now? ..... Why, why, why……
To be honest….. it took years to conquer the pain and sadness….. maybe not yet, I still cannot listen to…… or watch X Japan's videos….. without tears…..
" MY OWN GODDAMN BAND" ….. I can't listen to it without crying…… HOW CAN I BE IN IT AGAIN? …… IT HURTS SO MUCH…… TO EVEN TALK ABOUT ...... X JAPAN…..
Yes, I can play the drums. I think I can play them even harder than before…… of course my injured neck and wrists hurt….. but SO WHAT!!! ….. I don't give a fuck about that kind of pain…..
But mentally….. I don't know if I can take it….. I'm not saying if I'll do it or not….. I talked to Toshi (vocalist)……. He called me almost towards the end of last year….. for the first time since we went our separate ways……….
Toshi and I..... we grew up together…........ I don't know ….. I don't know…. I don't …… know …….
Yes, there are lyrics of the song "WITHOUT YOU" ….. That, I wrote, right after Hide's death….. also, I had to do so many takes of piano recording, because of the tears falling down and flooding the piano keys, and my fingers kept slipping again and again.
If there's somebody to sing this song ….. I think it should be Toshi….. but …… I don't know….. I don't know….. I don't fucking know….. It's too painful to……
I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything like that….. but so many people have been asking me about this, so I had to say something…… just let me….. have…… a little more time……
I love you all.
YOSHIKI
2007年1月24日 星期三
[Japanese TV Show] BariBari Value (中文字幕)--Guest Yoshiki
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/KytQ9qKJKmA/
2007.1.24 (待核實）
日本搞笑節目，攝制隊遠赴LA採訪Yoshiki，片中可看到YO的錄音室及住宅，還有一小段YO彈琴及單手打鼓。
2007.1.24 (待核實）
日本搞笑節目，攝制隊遠赴LA採訪Yoshiki，片中可看到YO的錄音室及住宅，還有一小段YO彈琴及單手打鼓。
2006年12月25日 星期一
[轉貼]Merry Xmas (from yoshiki's myspace)
Monday, December 25, 2006
Merry Xmas
Hi everyone,
I just got back from Miami....Well it's been a really busy month..... I went to Tokyo first and had some meetings and did a TV show.
I came back here to LA and did another TV show, then went to Miami.......
It was really nice out there, but I didn't go to the beach or anything…..... I went to the hospital, not that I'm sick, but I've been doing some research about the relationship between music and the human brain.
For example: when I was in Miami I played the piano in front of mental patients…. to see if the music could help their mental states…. well I'll be doing this research for a while collaborating with hospitals and universities. I'll let you know more in the future.
Anyway, it's almost the end of the year.
This year............ one of the biggest pieces of news for me is that I found out I have fans outside of Japan…. I visited some countries before, and met some fans at the airport, but I didn't know I have fans in that many countries…. I really don't know what to say…. how lucky I am....
Also early this year ........ my Japanese management office sent me almost 10,000 pages of paper…. I was like "What are those?"…. usually I get a lot of contracts, because I'm under contract with several different record companies, but those were not contracts for me to sign…. those were petitions from Taiwan, and all the letters said "Yoshiki please come to Taiwan"…... Wow ........ then on My space…. I just uploaded some songs for my friend in New York who works in the music industry, to get his opinion of my compositions…. then for some reason it spread, and still is. It's been very strange in a good way.
Then I started writing a blog, which I'm not good at…. but some people responded to it with such sweet messages…. even though I get hate mail sometimes, asking why I'm not responding to their mail….......... well….......... very cute! …...... and I still love you!!
It sounds like a one way street, but it's not…. I may not be able to respond with mail, but your feelings are always affecting my musical compositions…. eventually I will respond to all of you with my music.
I might have said before, when you're recording every day for a long time and pretty much shutting out everything from the outside world…. you start losing your sense of reality, and your mind starts drifting to the depth of the strange ocean of thoughts.
You start thinking of the meaning of life.... or start losing the meaning of who you are, even the meaning of your existence…. Well I secluded myself intentionally from the outside…. but I was on the edge….
Again, thank you very much for being there….
No matter what, I'll come back as an artist and start performing next year!!!
Yes, today is Christmas…. I'm alone at my studio…. But I'm OK, I wanted to keep recording…. So next year I can deliver the Violet UK album, and many more…. Then I can start touring the world…. I can't wait to meet you in person!!!!
It's cold in LA…. God! It was so cold in Japan…. Please take care and don't catch a cold.
And, I wish you a merry Christmas and happy holidays!
Love
YOSHIKI
PS:
Of course I have to mention the dish I ate in Miami… what was the name?.... I think it's called STONE CRAB.... "Not Stoned Crab"... they only take one claw and let them go back to the ocean....... anyway that was so yummy, I couldn't resist.... but I didn't eat strawberry cake at the restaurant, even though I wanted to...........see!... I listened to you a little! (I was fine with the crab, maybe I'm not allergic to them anymore. Hopefully strawberries too!) bye bye!
Merry Xmas
Hi everyone,
I just got back from Miami....Well it's been a really busy month..... I went to Tokyo first and had some meetings and did a TV show.
I came back here to LA and did another TV show, then went to Miami.......
It was really nice out there, but I didn't go to the beach or anything…..... I went to the hospital, not that I'm sick, but I've been doing some research about the relationship between music and the human brain.
For example: when I was in Miami I played the piano in front of mental patients…. to see if the music could help their mental states…. well I'll be doing this research for a while collaborating with hospitals and universities. I'll let you know more in the future.
Anyway, it's almost the end of the year.
This year............ one of the biggest pieces of news for me is that I found out I have fans outside of Japan…. I visited some countries before, and met some fans at the airport, but I didn't know I have fans in that many countries…. I really don't know what to say…. how lucky I am....
Also early this year ........ my Japanese management office sent me almost 10,000 pages of paper…. I was like "What are those?"…. usually I get a lot of contracts, because I'm under contract with several different record companies, but those were not contracts for me to sign…. those were petitions from Taiwan, and all the letters said "Yoshiki please come to Taiwan"…... Wow ........ then on My space…. I just uploaded some songs for my friend in New York who works in the music industry, to get his opinion of my compositions…. then for some reason it spread, and still is. It's been very strange in a good way.
Then I started writing a blog, which I'm not good at…. but some people responded to it with such sweet messages…. even though I get hate mail sometimes, asking why I'm not responding to their mail….......... well….......... very cute! …...... and I still love you!!
It sounds like a one way street, but it's not…. I may not be able to respond with mail, but your feelings are always affecting my musical compositions…. eventually I will respond to all of you with my music.
I might have said before, when you're recording every day for a long time and pretty much shutting out everything from the outside world…. you start losing your sense of reality, and your mind starts drifting to the depth of the strange ocean of thoughts.
You start thinking of the meaning of life.... or start losing the meaning of who you are, even the meaning of your existence…. Well I secluded myself intentionally from the outside…. but I was on the edge….
Again, thank you very much for being there….
No matter what, I'll come back as an artist and start performing next year!!!
Yes, today is Christmas…. I'm alone at my studio…. But I'm OK, I wanted to keep recording…. So next year I can deliver the Violet UK album, and many more…. Then I can start touring the world…. I can't wait to meet you in person!!!!
It's cold in LA…. God! It was so cold in Japan…. Please take care and don't catch a cold.
And, I wish you a merry Christmas and happy holidays!
Love
YOSHIKI
PS:
Of course I have to mention the dish I ate in Miami… what was the name?.... I think it's called STONE CRAB.... "Not Stoned Crab"... they only take one claw and let them go back to the ocean....... anyway that was so yummy, I couldn't resist.... but I didn't eat strawberry cake at the restaurant, even though I wanted to...........see!... I listened to you a little! (I was fine with the crab, maybe I'm not allergic to them anymore. Hopefully strawberries too!) bye bye!
2002年11月9日 星期六
[轉貼]YOSHIKI獨家採訪 ―《STYLE》雜誌(2002年)
2002年話出自傳, 結果等到2009年..................................................
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小松成美：Ｘ時代YOSHIKI又要打鼓，又要創作，那Violet U.K.怎麼樣呢，您還打鼓嗎？
YOSHIKI：打的。而且我還在拼命的練吉他，希望可以讓大家聽到一個全新的音樂。
小松成美：去年9月11日的恐怖攻擊事件，聽staff們說、YOSHIKI當時好像受了很大的刺激，像是得自閉症是嗎？
YOSHIKI：是的。那時，美國的電視每天都在播放罹難者家屬非常悲傷的採訪，我那一陣子也絕不出門，只是天天坐著看電視，好像是要被什麼吸進去一樣。自己也知道這樣不好，但腦筋就是轉不過來。看著許多人的悲傷，自然的想起了自己的事情。惡性循環持續了好一陣子。最後還是覺得應該做點自己該做的事。寫了沒有目的的曲子。寫好之後，覺得還是以911為題好了。之後，終於覺得踏實了一些，才又開始做音樂。
小松成美：YOSHIKI做的曲子，都融入了YOSHIKI自己的喜怒哀樂，我覺得音樂家很了不起，因為他們可以撫慰人的感情。
YOSHIKI：我不是女性，不能生小孩，但是，我覺得作曲和生育很像。都是充滿著痛苦和期待。有一首曲子我在寫他的時候很痛苦，但多少年後這首歌卻幫助了我。我到現在，每當消沉的時候還都是會聽「Endless Rain」。
小松成美：TOSHI退出和HIDE去世的時候也在聽嗎？
YOSHIKI：是的。
小松成美：記得HIDE去世是5月2日的事。
YOSHIKI：我當時在洛杉磯聽到這個消息時，認為這絕對是在騙人。一定是HIDE在開我玩笑。在回國的飛機上，看了新聞，才知道是真的。之後在告別式上見到了很多人，但我都記不得了。告別式結束之後，我馬上回了洛杉磯，開始責備自己，以為自己再也回不到音樂的世界裡了。
小松成美：是決定停止所有的演奏活動了嗎？
YOSHIKI：是的。我當時覺得一切都是我的責任。無論是TOSHI的退出，還是HIDE的死。特別是HIDE，我當時覺得完全崩潰了。
小松成美：那時解散後3個月的事……
YOSHIKI：那時TOSHI突然退出，我一時之間變得無法考慮往後的事，只有HIDE一邊說著「一定會重組Ｘ，一定能找到新的主唱的。」一邊拼命的在支持著我。那樣的HIDE一下子就消失了。我突然想到不就是我改變了他的一生嗎？覺得所有的事一下子都變得很可怕。之後無論幫誰做音樂，都不再作自己的了。完全把自己封閉在「過去」的盒子裡。
小松成美：我在98年第一次採訪了YOSHIKI，當時對你的印象是非常憔悴，完全沒有辦法說什麼話，沒辦法考慮自己的事情。
YOSHIKI：那是處於做什麼都不行的狀態。去看了心理醫生，我卻對著醫生大喊「你又知道什麼！」當時最害怕的就是想起Ｘ的事情，也幾乎不回日本。
小松成美：那時的採訪我是絕對忘不了的。那之前我對YOSHIKI只是在報紙上的了解。當時，YOSHIKI失去了Ｘ和HIDE，整個人好像沉到了谷底。但是我覺得YOSHIKI並沒有失去對音樂的愛，於是還問起了您父親的事情，覺得YOSHIKI真的是一個很溫柔的人，總覺得Ｘ音樂激烈的根源或許就來自於那種溫柔。
YOSHIKI：我也覺得當時小松小姐可以聽我說那些話，對我真的有很大幫助，我說出了我至今為止都沒有向任何人說過的話，感覺到自己真的還活著。去年，當我開始做Violet U.K.，決定試著站上舞台的時候，突然想到了請妳幫我寫一本書。
小松成美：是啊，接到YOSHIKI電話的時候，我也嚇了一跳，你突然說「我想說出到目前為止的一切，經由這本書，我想分清過去和未來。」在Ｘ的時代，連生日、本名、出生地都是秘密的人一下子……
YOSHIKI：我當時說出了在Ｘ崩壞，HIDE消失後一直說不出來的小時候的事情，簡單的說，好想獲得了新生一樣。
小松成美：那又是為什麼呢？
YOSHIKI：或許是我想看在小松小姐筆下的我自己吧。而且，當時的採訪，對我來說，是一個記憶很鮮明的經驗。我看到了完成的雜誌，意識到小松的文章可以把我所說的話傳達給Fans們，突然感到很安心。現在我也很想看你寫的那本自傳呢。
小松成美：我一共去了6、7趟啦，累積了100多小時的訪問，又採訪了YOSHIKI在Ｘ時代的友人們，還有工作人員，還進了錄音室。一天12個小時都待在一起。
YOSHIKI：除了工作人員之外，妳可是第一個看到我工作的人呢。
小松成美：那是我的榮幸。我還有幸採訪到了YOSHIKI的母親和弟弟。我想這次的書裡大概會有不少YOSHIKI本人都不知道的事呢。現在已經進入了整理，撰寫的階段，預計秋天出版，你就在等一陣子吧。
YOSHIKI：有很多我自己不知道的事情，這有點可怕了吧。（笑）
小松成美：也是――（笑），但是我也知道了YOSHIKI是不會放棄音樂的，在這一點上我感到很高興。
YOSHIKI：是啊，我也覺得放棄音樂的自己是大笨蛋。
絕對音感
YOSHIKI：小時候，受過'絕對音感'這種訓練。就是要能把所有的聲音都自動轉變成音符的訓練。比如說，這個聲音（說著，敲了一下桌子），就是d。
小松成美：記得也是在洛杉磯，我對ミキサ做採訪的時候，他說有一次筆掉在地上，YOSHIKI回頭就在鋼琴上彈出了一樣的音。能做到這一點的在美國一個人都沒有。
YOSHIKI：當時練習是很苦的，要把所有聽到的都變成音符，但最難的是把它表現出來，雖然我自己聽起來是沒什麼問題。
小松成美：聽說您父親也彈過鋼琴，與這有關嗎？
YOSHIKI：我覺得是託母親的福，4歲起她就讓我練習了。
小松成美：可是，根據我的採訪，您母親說「小時候，YOSHIKI突然跟我說：無論如何，我也要學鋼琴。」
YOSHIKI：我5、6歲的時候好想當鋼琴家，每天都要把鋼琴室的燈都關了，拉起窗廉，在黑暗的氣氛中練習。
小松成美：看來，演唱會的燈光照明是你的興趣啊。
YOSHIKI：是，是（笑）。那時只有6歲就那樣了。這麼說來，我開始做曲是幾歲呢???...
小松成美：聽說是小學低年級的時候，在您家還看到了當時寫的樂譜。和TOSHI認識也是那時候嗎？
YOSHIKI：不是，是上小學之前，當時我們是同一個幼稚園的，5歲。
小松成美：還有，這是您母親說的，說YOSHIKI小時候哮喘非常嚴重，一天到晚只能坐著讀書。
YOSHIKI：是的。
小松成美：那時候不能上體育課，嚴重過敏體質，限制飲食，很瘦、很白。那樣一個纖細、體弱多病的小孩子，現在卻變成了能砸壞所有鼓，做出那樣激烈音樂的青年，這是為什麼呢？
YOSHIKI：是啊，為什麼呢？（笑）那怎麼說也不是身體上的，而是從內心湧出來的能量，我只是發揮它而已。
小松成美：是說沒有這種能量的人就不能成為那樣的人嗎？
YOSHIKI：我不適合回答這題。我並不認為自己是特別的。我只是非常努力。無論是鼓還是鋼琴，都拼命的練習。
小松成美：YOSHIKI將來的夢想是什麼呢？
YOSHIKI：現在的夢想是引退。
小松成美：哎？！怎麼這樣！
YOSHIKI：不是不是，我不是說現在。再怎麼說我現在的人生也只過了一半。早上起來就那個樣子去錄音室，晚上回家就是睡覺。這樣過了多少年了？我也知道一共可以做多少事情。但是，如果我達成了世界制霸的目標，就引退。在義大利的海邊，有一間自己的房子，在那裡彈彈琴，寫寫曲子。
小松成美：和家人住在一起，會有小孩嗎？
YOSHIKI：我想一定會有的。不過，把引退當成夢想的人不多吧。
小松成美：是不多，太超前了（笑）。在大家都滿心歡喜的等著YOSHIKI歸來的時候―――
YOSHIKI：沒問題，在目標達成之前我是不會引退的。
之後是一個小趣聞： YOSHIKI不記得自己家的電話號碼。「我是一個人住嘛，自己在外面又不會打電話回家。上次超速被逮到的時候，警察問我住址和電話，地址我記得住，可是電話實在是忘了，被臭罵了一頓。」
PS:我說過，HIDE不管是怎樣――的，但他做成了一件誰也沒做成的事情--他讓YOSHIKI恐懼死亡。不是恐懼自己的死亡，而是無法忍受任何人的死亡。不是對死亡感到恐懼，而是對死亡恐懼的恐懼。 試想，我們，就算是經歷過親人生死離別的人看到911，又想到了什麼呢？無非是兩種，1.活該，2.不人道。可是YOSHIKI的反應已經屬於不太正常的範圍了，說心理不健康也好，說HIDE帶給他的後遺症也好，至少YOSHIKI意識到了死亡是可怕的。
記得很多年前，YOSHIKI的口頭禪是「我會在34歲死掉。」而現在，他再也不說了。戒菸戒酒，雖然還是勉強體力工作，但比以前不知已經節制了多少了。 這對Fans們來說，應該算是好事吧。
2002年11月6日 星期三
[Concert] Last Live DVD Yoshiki寫的後話 (中文翻譯)
與你分離之後 我該漂泊到何處？
逝者如斯只能詢問似箭光陰
漫漫長夜裡我夢遊四方
夢見自己凝望異鄉星空
擁抱無可救要的孤寂～from [ Tears ]
Tears原本不是為X-JAPAN所寫的歌
歌詞也和現在的版本不同
那是1993年春天的事情
在我L.A.的家中,和HIDE兩人
討論下一張專輯的歌曲
雖說開會但只開始認真談了一下
沒多久就像往常一樣開始喝酒
喝醉了就跳進泳池
一回神總是工作人員
把我們從泳池"撈"了起來
第二天通電話:
「昨天我們談了些什麼?」
「我也不曉得」
「那再開一次會好了」
每次都這樣
但是那天HIDE卻記得其中的片段
「那個Tears」
「什麼?」
「填新詞在X-JAPAN唱吧」
「新的詞?」
我也同意HIDE的想法
第二天我開始寫Tears的新詞
～流過的淚化作時代的輕風吹去
感受你永無止境的嘆息~
from [ Tears ]
1997年夏天
Toshi已經離開了X-JAPAN
他退團後,因為與唱片公司合約的關係
主要從事X-JAPAN的錄音
是一段很辛苦的日子
那年5月,自從知道Toshi退團的意願
並也認同之後,開始回想過去
我和Toshi五歲就認識了
我們是幼稚園同班同學
之後30年來,跟他在一起的回憶
跟我的人生回憶,有著相同意義
同樣的X . X-JAPAN對我而言
是跟家人一樣的
與Toshi . Hide共渡的時光
在我人生中,比任何人都還要長
對時光流逝的物換星移,我雖然了解
但心裡卻不能接受這事實
在那樣狀況下,繼續從事錄音工作
過去我認為,所謂"回憶"
絕對不是過去的字眼
而是與未來連繫著的言語
與時間共存續,而且嶄新的序曲
過去曾存有一次心情與言語的序曲
內心傷痕都封印在"夢"這個字眼
也只剩無意識所寫歌詞在支撐著
～Endless rain ,fall on my heart
在心的傷痕
Let me forget all of the hate all of the sadness～
from [ Endless rain ]
1997年秋天
與Hide開會
那是很認真的討論
討論了LAST LIVE 和LAST SONG
雙方對於X-JAPAN暫時解散
2000年再復出 立刻有了共識
「可能會難過一陣子吧」
就這樣邊談邊處理樂曲事宜
我們談的還蠻愉快的
最後一夜演唱會我持反對意見
我與Toshi間,有太多數不清的回憶
在他退團後持續進行的錄音
以及其後進行的彩排等
我沒有信心去克服心裡障礙
我甚至覺得沒必要
在形式上劃上休止符
......我不想再受傷了
不過最後
因為要給樂迷交代才答應了
LAST SONG 並沒有結論
這與其說是我和HIDE的想法
不如說是唱片公司和經紀公司
授意我們做的
我很不想做這首歌
從頭到尾都反對
因為...X-JAPAN還不需要LAST SONG
2002年1月 X-JAPAN Film Gig
我彈了最後一首曲子的鋼琴
樂團解散後,四年來首度
在舞台上和樂迷重逢
他(她)們的態度和四年前一樣
我覺得那壓抑不住的淚水
在洗滌我們的心靈
剎那間,許多話
都埋藏在已經空白的頭腦中
即使嘗試在依靠記憶可觸及
現實內心深處建立好幾道強
無法承受的的孤獨有如氾濫的感情死骸
埋藏在心裏 也讓我失去了
在逐漸接近虛像空間中前進的地方
假如可以稍微感覺到自己的身影-
-舞在DIORAMA之中的瞬間美學
就算心中充滿傷痕也是值得的
-就算被時代潮流吞噬
也不想被時代牽著鼻子走-
-曾經被黑白混亂的心靈
如今鮮明透徹
我就像愛人一般地愛著音樂-
這些全部都是以前我說過的話
2002年2月
長達一年以上的LAST LIVE
編輯作業就要結束
15年來,以X-JAPAN來面對周遭世界
在之後,我獨自走來
在那之後,有什麼改變
又有什麼原封不動的繼續下來
X-JAPAN所一心一意超越的壁壘
以及繼續破壞的壁壘 到底是什麼?
有什麼意義? 在幾個答案之中
我迷失了真正的答案
一回神又在凝視孤獨的夜空
一點點的消失Our Memories
只是傷害受傷應可了解的答案
為什麼還要問
緊擁不停的雨夜迎向晨光
心依然滿溢～
from[ The last song ]
X-JAPAN最後一首寫好的歌
是我建造的最新一道牆
I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining
gradually takes over
I'll be in the next chapter
from[ The last song ]
雖然穿過好幾個夜晚
可是黎明並未出現
我自囚於自己所造的牆壁中
～勉強起身 什麼也看不到
喊叫的衝動潛藏於胸口
心境出現另外一個自己
他在心中呼喊
破壞眼見所及的東西
包括夢想,現實,記憶
連你自己也在內～
from [ Art of life ]
2002年3月3日
本片編輯最後一天
我收到一捲錄影帶
那是2002年1月
所舉行的Film Tour
最後放映在各會場的影像
影像中充滿現場樂迷的淚水與笑容
....原來,我並不是獨自走過來
與其在時代洪流中找尋答案
與其問自己存在的意義
現在的我只想創造音樂
跳進可演奏所有感情的旋律之海
讓每一個感情成真
然後開闢新的境地
由許多人的愛所造就
接著過去至未來的橋
在那座橋可以到達的地方....
希望今後也和大家一起向前行
在永遠落下的雨中
支持Toshi , Hide , Pata , heath , Taiji
X . X-JAPAN 的工作人員
以及一直支持我們心靈的樂迷們
我由衷地感謝你們
Love
Yoshiki
逝者如斯只能詢問似箭光陰
漫漫長夜裡我夢遊四方
夢見自己凝望異鄉星空
擁抱無可救要的孤寂～from [ Tears ]
Tears原本不是為X-JAPAN所寫的歌
歌詞也和現在的版本不同
那是1993年春天的事情
在我L.A.的家中,和HIDE兩人
討論下一張專輯的歌曲
雖說開會但只開始認真談了一下
沒多久就像往常一樣開始喝酒
喝醉了就跳進泳池
一回神總是工作人員
把我們從泳池"撈"了起來
第二天通電話:
「昨天我們談了些什麼?」
「我也不曉得」
「那再開一次會好了」
每次都這樣
但是那天HIDE卻記得其中的片段
「那個Tears」
「什麼?」
「填新詞在X-JAPAN唱吧」
「新的詞?」
我也同意HIDE的想法
第二天我開始寫Tears的新詞
～流過的淚化作時代的輕風吹去
感受你永無止境的嘆息~
from [ Tears ]
1997年夏天
Toshi已經離開了X-JAPAN
他退團後,因為與唱片公司合約的關係
主要從事X-JAPAN的錄音
是一段很辛苦的日子
那年5月,自從知道Toshi退團的意願
並也認同之後,開始回想過去
我和Toshi五歲就認識了
我們是幼稚園同班同學
之後30年來,跟他在一起的回憶
跟我的人生回憶,有著相同意義
同樣的X . X-JAPAN對我而言
是跟家人一樣的
與Toshi . Hide共渡的時光
在我人生中,比任何人都還要長
對時光流逝的物換星移,我雖然了解
但心裡卻不能接受這事實
在那樣狀況下,繼續從事錄音工作
過去我認為,所謂"回憶"
絕對不是過去的字眼
而是與未來連繫著的言語
與時間共存續,而且嶄新的序曲
過去曾存有一次心情與言語的序曲
內心傷痕都封印在"夢"這個字眼
也只剩無意識所寫歌詞在支撐著
～Endless rain ,fall on my heart
在心的傷痕
Let me forget all of the hate all of the sadness～
from [ Endless rain ]
1997年秋天
與Hide開會
那是很認真的討論
討論了LAST LIVE 和LAST SONG
雙方對於X-JAPAN暫時解散
2000年再復出 立刻有了共識
「可能會難過一陣子吧」
就這樣邊談邊處理樂曲事宜
我們談的還蠻愉快的
最後一夜演唱會我持反對意見
我與Toshi間,有太多數不清的回憶
在他退團後持續進行的錄音
以及其後進行的彩排等
我沒有信心去克服心裡障礙
我甚至覺得沒必要
在形式上劃上休止符
......我不想再受傷了
不過最後
因為要給樂迷交代才答應了
LAST SONG 並沒有結論
這與其說是我和HIDE的想法
不如說是唱片公司和經紀公司
授意我們做的
我很不想做這首歌
從頭到尾都反對
因為...X-JAPAN還不需要LAST SONG
2002年1月 X-JAPAN Film Gig
我彈了最後一首曲子的鋼琴
樂團解散後,四年來首度
在舞台上和樂迷重逢
他(她)們的態度和四年前一樣
我覺得那壓抑不住的淚水
在洗滌我們的心靈
剎那間,許多話
都埋藏在已經空白的頭腦中
即使嘗試在依靠記憶可觸及
現實內心深處建立好幾道強
無法承受的的孤獨有如氾濫的感情死骸
埋藏在心裏 也讓我失去了
在逐漸接近虛像空間中前進的地方
假如可以稍微感覺到自己的身影-
-舞在DIORAMA之中的瞬間美學
就算心中充滿傷痕也是值得的
-就算被時代潮流吞噬
也不想被時代牽著鼻子走-
-曾經被黑白混亂的心靈
如今鮮明透徹
我就像愛人一般地愛著音樂-
這些全部都是以前我說過的話
2002年2月
長達一年以上的LAST LIVE
編輯作業就要結束
15年來,以X-JAPAN來面對周遭世界
在之後,我獨自走來
在那之後,有什麼改變
又有什麼原封不動的繼續下來
X-JAPAN所一心一意超越的壁壘
以及繼續破壞的壁壘 到底是什麼?
有什麼意義? 在幾個答案之中
我迷失了真正的答案
一回神又在凝視孤獨的夜空
一點點的消失Our Memories
只是傷害受傷應可了解的答案
為什麼還要問
緊擁不停的雨夜迎向晨光
心依然滿溢～
from[ The last song ]
X-JAPAN最後一首寫好的歌
是我建造的最新一道牆
I see red
I see blue
But the silver lining
gradually takes over
I'll be in the next chapter
from[ The last song ]
雖然穿過好幾個夜晚
可是黎明並未出現
我自囚於自己所造的牆壁中
～勉強起身 什麼也看不到
喊叫的衝動潛藏於胸口
心境出現另外一個自己
他在心中呼喊
破壞眼見所及的東西
包括夢想,現實,記憶
連你自己也在內～
from [ Art of life ]
2002年3月3日
本片編輯最後一天
我收到一捲錄影帶
那是2002年1月
所舉行的Film Tour
最後放映在各會場的影像
影像中充滿現場樂迷的淚水與笑容
....原來,我並不是獨自走過來
與其在時代洪流中找尋答案
與其問自己存在的意義
現在的我只想創造音樂
跳進可演奏所有感情的旋律之海
讓每一個感情成真
然後開闢新的境地
由許多人的愛所造就
接著過去至未來的橋
在那座橋可以到達的地方....
希望今後也和大家一起向前行
在永遠落下的雨中
支持Toshi , Hide , Pata , heath , Taiji
X . X-JAPAN 的工作人員
以及一直支持我們心靈的樂迷們
我由衷地感謝你們
Love
Yoshiki
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那個可一不可再的Last Live, 永遠懷念Hide。
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