[轉貼]Toshi mixi blog 2010.1.31

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2010年01月31日11:47 

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[轉貼] S.K.I.N. show (from Yoshiki myspace)

18 Aug 2007

S.K.I.N. show

OK….. I came back to L.A. from Tokyo just 2 days before the S.K.I.N. show. I had to go to my recording studio directly from LAX airport, had some meetings regarding the movie soundtrack I've been working on, and practiced the drums for the show.

The next day we had a band rehearsal at the Long Beach Arena, but before and after that I had to go to my recording studio again (with traffic, those locations are around 2 hours apart).
So I didn't have time to sleep the night before the show.

Well I guess I should say the first S.K.I.N. Live went well, considering the minimal rehearsal time we had, and the band members did very well…..
….but my head was a little blurry….. Not because I didn't sleep a few days before the show…..

I wish I could have seen everybody's face (audience) a little more….. And I should have smashed the drum set even more…ha ha ha ha ……
I don't exactly know what I'm talking about….. but….. Well….. That was the first drum performance on stage for me since X Japan's Last Live…..

I don't know why but as soon as I started playing the drums on the stage at the Long Beach, so many memories started filling my head…..
Don't get me wrong… I was very excited playing with these amazingly brilliant members, but I started feeling a little sad, and a few times tears filled my eyes and blurred my vision….. Very strange…..
I don't think I've conquered the sadness of past X Japan memories yet…..

But at the same time I felt like I found the place to live….. Besides inside of the dark recording studio.
Being on stage….. Breathing with you….. And beating the beat along with your heartbeats…..
I don't know how long I should be, and I can be….. But I found a place again ….where I belong.

I'd like to feel the sound

I'd like to feel your breath

I'd like to feel your heartbeat

I'd like to feel your scream

More and more…..

I love you,

YOSHIKI

ROCK’N ROLL PARTY

Copied from :Yoshiki Myspace https://myspace.com/yoshiki

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

ROCK’N ROLL PARTY


OK…… I wrote this blog more than a month ago when I was staying in Tokyo.

I wrote it, but as soon as I finished typing, I had to start rehearsing…… and doing everything else. So I didn't have time at all.

It sounds a bit strange, but since I wrote it, I'll post it anyway.

Regarding the S.K.I.N. show and JAPAN EXPO in Paris; I'll post them separately….. Damn I spilled the water again. I must still be jetlagged AH----!

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Hi everyone!

I don't know where to start. Whether it's good or bad, so many things are going on!!!

Today, maybe I'll just talk about the party after the JRock shows.

First of all, the JRock shows were very successful. Thank you so much for all your support, even to those who couldn't attend…..

To be honest, there were a lot of things to organize before the show, especially the last 3 days I barely slept…… but it was worth it, when I saw everybody smiling…. That's it, it just made me happy!!!

Well, after the night of the second show, all the tension we had through those days was released…… I mean….. Exploded!!

The night of the 26th, all the band members (MUCC, D'espairsRay, Girugamesh, Merry) who performed that day, came to my house. We were just eating and drinking…. Suddenly Yukke from MUCC asked me if he could jump into the pool….. I said "sure!"…… right after that, Tsukasa from D'espairsRay asked me if I could throw him into the pool…… I said….. Why??? Then he said that was one of his dreams…… (I thought that was a strange wish)……. I said ……. OK!!! Well…… after two Rockstars were in the pool….. I was like….. You know what …… WHY NOT!!! I jumped into the pool as well…… after I jumped….. Everyone started jumping in.


As far as I remember, it was probably around 1 or 2 A.M., and everyone jumped in with their clothes on…… I think???

We ended up drinking and swimming until 6 A.M. (I feel sorry for the neighbors because we were so loud, but that was one of the best rock & roll parties I've had in several years!!!).

These days I have a lot of things on my mind, including the issue about X-Japan's reunion. That's been driving me absolutely crazy…... if that thing happens or not….. JRock shows and the party made me realize I have a lot of fans and friends that I can share the dream with……

I'm so fortunate that I have you around…..

…… with VUK, with S.K.I.N. (actually I'm in Tokyo right now, rehearsing with the band for the show)….. and with you…..

I want to start rocking again.


Love,

YOSHIKI


PS
Last week, I had to start producing the music for a new Hollywood movie in L.A…… (AH…… WHY NOW?!?!) Thanks to the internet and technology, I'm overseeing it here from Japan!

PPS
The day before yesterday, in the airplane on the way to Japan, I had a really weird dream….. I almost….. Well, I think I screamed!! The flight attendant came to me and said "Are you OK? ....." Then I said "THE RICE MONSTER IS TRYING TO EAT ME!!!"….. And she said……. "WHAT????" and I said……mmmm……ah……. "Never mind……ah….. Could I have a glass of Champagne and Caviar please?"

……. OH MY GOD!!!..... "I am so embarrassed"….. I've been doing a "special diet" and training, in order for me to play drums even harder….. Since then "THE RICE MONSTER" has been showing up in my dreams. Ha ha ha ha ha!!!

[轉貼]Busy (from Yoshiki myspace)

Copied from: https://myspace.com/yoshiki



Busy
Current mood:busy

Hi everyone,
I'm sorry but I've been really busy.
I haven't even had the time to log on.
Well…I'll be posting a new blog and some pictures really soon!!!

Love,
YOSHIKI

[轉貼] HOT CHOCOLATE! (copy from yoshiki myspace)

HOT CHOCOLATE!
Current mood:surprised




How are you everyone?

I just have to tell you something. ...Last night after the recording, I drove by the Wiltern Theater (LA). I saw several cool looking people camping outside the venue.
It was probably around midnight….I wondered "Who's performing tomorrow?"
I then called one of my assistants to find out the schedule of the venue….. He said "Only the JRock festival is happening this week at that venue." …… Then I said "Are you serious? Are they camping out for our concert?"…..
It was already late, but I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about them…….. So..... around 3 A.M. I drove up to the venue, and brought several coffees and hot chocolates to them…..

L.A. is still very cold at night….. Also ….. I don't know I was just very shocked because the show starts on Friday. One of the guys said he'd been camping out since Monday….. COME ON!!!!! ….. I don't know what to say, but they're extremely devoted…...I guess that's Rock 'n Roll…… but I hope they don't catch a cold…..

Maybe I should bring something warm for them….. Although I have a production meeting all night tonight…… AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I hope everything goes well for those nights, and I'll pray for everybody's health.

Love You,

YOSHIKI

[轉貼] J rock festival (Copy from Yoshiki's myspace)

Friday, April 13, 2007

J rock festival


Hi everyone!

I also wanted to thank you for the comments on the last blog regarding............. X Japan.....

I still haven't figured out what to do with this matter….. but when I decide, please know that each one of you helped me with this decision, which I really appreciate!!!

OK…… let me change the subject…….
More than a year ago, some of my friends asked me if I could organize a Japanese Rock event in America……… then I said……. OK! ..... Well that's it…… We're doing it.
When I used to live in Tokyo, I organized several rock concerts….. So this time I'm doing it in Los Angeles with several partners. ….. Some small details may change, but we have 9 bands coming from Japan and will be performing at the "Wiltern Theater" in L.A. on May 25, 26th.
(The band lineup will be:alice nine., Vidoll, Duel Jewel, Kagrra, Miyavi, DéspairsRay, Merry, Girugamesh, and MUCC.

Also, at the theater, the fourth member of the band will be announced.
I'm not performing….. but I'll be there to make sure everything rocks.

Another thing….. Last week I was asked to do another soundtrack of a new Hollywood movie…… I just finished reading the script…… this one is really, really weird, but very interesting……. Maybe I should do it…… well my managers and attorneys started negotiating with the movie studio…… hopefully everything works out!
I love what I do….. but sometimes the pressure of the schedule is intense, and stressful, because I really care about the quality of the music, no matter what project I'm involved with.

I feel like I just opened the door a little bit, that has been closed for several years after the sad incident….. Well things start flooding into it….. I guess I'm lucky…… but I'm a little tired…..
Maybe I've been working in the studio too long…… maybe I should get out and perform!!!
……..OOPS!!! I just spilled the melted chocolate ice cream on the keyboard…… AHHHHH… (to be specific: which is chocolate ice cream made of rice which my nutritionist recommended.)…..…AHHHHHHH!!!!!
…… I'm so clumsy….. Well I should go and clean my desk…. Hope to meet you soon!!!!!

Love,

YOSHIKI

PS: regarding the Jrock festival. If you'd like to know more information, please go to J rock revolution

[轉貼]Hacked (from yoshiki's myspace)

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Hacked
Current mood: confused




Wow, my Violet UK account got hacked….. since it's been brought to my attention, I've fixed the problem.
I just wanted to tell everyone who let me know about this;
Thank you very much for your support, and for the instructions on how to fix this problem.
Thank you, thank you!!!!!!

I love you,

YOSHIKI

[轉貼] X JAPAN (from yoshiki's myspace)

Sunday, February 25, 2007

X JAPAN




God!!!
I finally got the day off yesterday.
After the new year, I've been working and working……. I got sick, but kept recording and recording……. So I finally finished one of the projects I have been working on……. Not VUK, not yet…….

Anyway, it was a perfect day off…… I went to my studio, and interviewed several candidates for my entertainment organization, and went to dinner with several friends…… then went to see the "Dir en grey" show at the Wiltern Theater in LA.
Overall the show was great…… full of energy, and….. every time I see them perform, it makes me want to rock…… I'm doing a lot of different genres of music……. from classical to…… whatever…… but I think I really love rock. I've been playing the drums since I was 10 years old…… well, actually playing the piano since age 4 as well.

Anyway…… after the show, the entire band came to my house, and celebrated Shinya's (the drummer's) birthday party. Back then….. well, when I was producing Dir en grey, we used to hang out pretty much every day…… It was so nice to hang out with them again.
Last night we ended up drinking together until the morning,
I hope they're all OK for the show tonight.

On stage they were very charismatic, but off stage they are some of the sweetest people I know…… HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM!!!

Well, I haven't been producing bands or artists for a while…… because at one point I was producing almost 10 artists at the same time, and it completely burned me out…… But I may be starting again…… well before I do, I have to finish so many other things……
OK….. I'm still working on Violet UK……I think….. but for the first time in many years, I'm confident that some of these songs will be able to blow your minds away……

When I used to do X Japan's songs…… every time I finished recording….. I hated them….. I always felt that something was missing…… but finally with VUK…… You'll see!!!!!!!

And…… some people have questions about "THE BAND".
Yes, Sugizo from Luna Sea came here to LA several times last year, and last month Gackt came to town, and we both went to dinner….. pretty much just the two of us……
Actually that was really funny….. Gackt came to my house and ate dinner…… that was good….. Then I said to him "why don't we go out to dinner?". and he said "we just ate…..???" then I said "I wanna eat different food….." well .... we ate Japanese food at my house, and then ended up going out to a Japanese restaurant in LA…..
(We are very weird…. Ha, ha, ha, ha)…… but that was fun!

Yes, I'm so lucky to have them as friends, and also to be able to work with them professionally.
Sugizo and Gackt are such talented people, also having such an amazing vibe. Actually, they are all going to come here next month with one more person that I can't reveal yet.

OK, and X Japan…..
I'm like…….Why now? ..... Why, why, why……
To be honest….. it took years to conquer the pain and sadness….. maybe not yet, I still cannot listen to…… or watch X Japan's videos….. without tears…..
" MY OWN GODDAMN BAND" ….. I can't listen to it without crying…… HOW CAN I BE IN IT AGAIN? …… IT HURTS SO MUCH…… TO EVEN TALK ABOUT ...... X JAPAN…..
Yes, I can play the drums. I think I can play them even harder than before…… of course my injured neck and wrists hurt….. but SO WHAT!!! ….. I don't give a fuck about that kind of pain…..
But mentally….. I don't know if I can take it….. I'm not saying if I'll do it or not….. I talked to Toshi (vocalist)……. He called me almost towards the end of last year….. for the first time since we went our separate ways……….
Toshi and I..... we grew up together…........ I don't know ….. I don't know…. I don't …… know …….

Yes, there are lyrics of the song "WITHOUT YOU" ….. That, I wrote, right after Hide's death….. also, I had to do so many takes of piano recording, because of the tears falling down and flooding the piano keys, and my fingers kept slipping again and again.
If there's somebody to sing this song ….. I think it should be Toshi….. but …… I don't know….. I don't know….. I don't fucking know….. It's too painful to……
I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel depressed or anything like that….. but so many people have been asking me about this, so I had to say something…… just let me….. have…… a little more time……

I love you all.

YOSHIKI

[轉貼]Merry Xmas (from yoshiki's myspace)

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Xmas


Hi everyone,

I just got back from Miami....Well it's been a really busy month..... I went to Tokyo first and had some meetings and did a TV show.
I came back here to LA and did another TV show, then went to Miami.......
It was really nice out there, but I didn't go to the beach or anything…..... I went to the hospital, not that I'm sick, but I've been doing some research about the relationship between music and the human brain.
For example: when I was in Miami I played the piano in front of mental patients…. to see if the music could help their mental states…. well I'll be doing this research for a while collaborating with hospitals and universities. I'll let you know more in the future.

Anyway, it's almost the end of the year.

This year............ one of the biggest pieces of news for me is that I found out I have fans outside of Japan…. I visited some countries before, and met some fans at the airport, but I didn't know I have fans in that many countries…. I really don't know what to say…. how lucky I am....

Also early this year ........ my Japanese management office sent me almost 10,000 pages of paper…. I was like "What are those?"…. usually I get a lot of contracts, because I'm under contract with several different record companies, but those were not contracts for me to sign…. those were petitions from Taiwan, and all the letters said "Yoshiki please come to Taiwan"…... Wow ........ then on My space…. I just uploaded some songs for my friend in New York who works in the music industry, to get his opinion of my compositions…. then for some reason it spread, and still is. It's been very strange in a good way.

Then I started writing a blog, which I'm not good at…. but some people responded to it with such sweet messages…. even though I get hate mail sometimes, asking why I'm not responding to their mail….......... well….......... very cute! …...... and I still love you!!
It sounds like a one way street, but it's not…. I may not be able to respond with mail, but your feelings are always affecting my musical compositions…. eventually I will respond to all of you with my music.

I might have said before, when you're recording every day for a long time and pretty much shutting out everything from the outside world…. you start losing your sense of reality, and your mind starts drifting to the depth of the strange ocean of thoughts.
You start thinking of the meaning of life.... or start losing the meaning of who you are, even the meaning of your existence…. Well I secluded myself intentionally from the outside…. but I was on the edge….

Again, thank you very much for being there….
No matter what, I'll come back as an artist and start performing next year!!!

Yes, today is Christmas…. I'm alone at my studio…. But I'm OK, I wanted to keep recording…. So next year I can deliver the Violet UK album, and many more…. Then I can start touring the world…. I can't wait to meet you in person!!!!

It's cold in LA…. God! It was so cold in Japan…. Please take care and don't catch a cold.

And, I wish you a merry Christmas and happy holidays!

Love

YOSHIKI

PS:
Of course I have to mention the dish I ate in Miami… what was the name?.... I think it's called STONE CRAB.... "Not Stoned Crab"... they only take one claw and let them go back to the ocean....... anyway that was so yummy, I couldn't resist.... but I didn't eat strawberry cake at the restaurant, even though I wanted to...........see!... I listened to you a little! (I was fine with the crab, maybe I'm not allergic to them anymore. Hopefully strawberries too!) bye bye!